I'm tired of waiting for stabilization, and I'm tired of waiting for the hospital. Its time I be more proactive for me and do what I think will work.
I've told wiggers, through email, that I want to be put on the wait list for ECT. He took me off when I went on the wait list for the hospital. I want ECT. I want to try something. Sitting around and waiting isn't helping.
I'm being self hateful, and self destructive, and nothing is really changing when it comes to my lows.
It's my turn to take control.