I want to go to yoga. I want to meditate. I want to spend more time outside. I want to play my guitar. I want to listen to Steve's songs, I want to do my values book, I want to do my dbt book, I want to do my funeral director book, I want to read, I want to knit, I want to watch greys anatomy....I went to he's defeated instead.
There isn't enough time in the day. I work until 5, then dinner, then kids, by that time it's minimum 7:30 and there is no time to accomplish everything so I quit and do nothing.
I'm a lazy quitter. This is why I don't set goals. This is why I don't try new things. I don't stick with it. I fail. Sigh.
The dark passenger is winning tonight and I'm hoping it's just for tonight. Hoping I wake up fresh and ready to try again but then tomorrow night will come and I'll have the same problem. I never do anything, I quit everything. I waste my time because I don't feel I'm worth any of it.